Keeping the Faith

Although somewhat disappointed that my first attempt at a part time job didn't work out I quickly discovered the benefits of letting go of what does not serve me - and how that creates the space for something better to appear that does serve me and my highest good. Part of me didn't want to let go of the job at Taos Spa and Tennis Club until I had located another position. Then I realized that holding onto to something for reasons of security and scarcity thinking would continue to stagnate the flow of energy and better options wouldn't be attracted to me because I would be in the field of "hanging on". How many other times have I done that in my life with other jobs, relationships, and issues... Too many to count. Maybe this should be my new mantra - if it doesn't feel good after 3 days - let it go.

Of course that doesn't mean that there aren't many times that relationships with employers, partners/spouses, etc. aren't worth fighting for and staying through the "thick and the thin" - it's a process of discernment - is it temporarily going thru a "yucky" phase or is this a sign of irreconcilable differences and continuing decay? I'm certainly no expert on this subject as I have had a series of varying length monogamous relationships (8 yrs, 9 yrs, 11 yrs respectively)but I'm hopeful that this lesson (it has been a recurring one)will serve me well as I navigate potential future relationships whether with friends or romantic partners.

So the upshot of letting go of the less than perfect job is that I have been spending more time at the other gym in town, Northside Health and Fitness Ctr., and have noticed how much warmer, more relaxed the atmosphere is - a real sense of community. I approached the manager and found out that although there's no current positions available the owner would be open to a trade for membership for a certain # of hours/month as well as being on the sub list to fill in for staff vacation/sick days. The owners are a lesbian couple with 2 children and are bright, politically liberal and passionate about fostering a sense of warmth and community at their facility. As Shelley, one of the co-owners, talked to me she invited me into her office, showed me the map of the states highlighting the percentages of support for the current nominess for President and made no excuses for her support for Obama; then delightly showed me a utube video of her daughter and son (ages 6 and 3)singing and playing instruments with a local band. I consistently noticed the way the manager greeted members, the hugs that were mutually reciprocated and the amount of laughter that could be heard from my seat in the sidelines while using my laptop and sipping iced Americano's...(in case you were wondering - only one/day) This made me realize that this was the place for me and so it is. Yesterday I scored a free membership card and will train at some future date for filling in behind the desk.

I have a sense that this will be a good introduction to the community of Taos; already while soaking in the hot tub I met a healing touch practitioner who gave me the name of a Reiki Master in town who might be involved in a Reiki exchange group.
And heard warnings about the mountain lions and bobcats in the mountains... Well that's the subject of another entry....