For those of you that have been reading between the lines you may have noticed that I have not been feeling my most upbeat and positive lately. Knowing how the "law of attraction" works I'm not surprised that I have been attracting more of the same - much to my dismay and disappointment. I noticed that I was focusing on what I don't like about Taos and what I miss about New England rather than appreciating what I do like about living in this area. Fears have dramatically come to the surface recently as far as my financial stability goes - given the current state of the stock market - and to top it over I've had a few physical challenges as well. After having a brief pity party I have decided to change tack - as always if you don't like where you're going you need to change direction. And according to Abraham-Hicks the results you're experiencing in your life are directly related to the thoughts/feelings you've been having....
So, I've started a "treasure hunt" perspective to living in Taos and vow to discover and appreciate at least one thing(preferably new but repeats will do, if needed)every day. Yesterday I was invited to visit the local ashram in Taos (it's hidden right in the middle of town much like "where's waldo" - you'd never know it was there if someone didn'take you there); the devotees of the ashram pray to the same guru as Ram Dass (Richard Alpert). I also found out that there is a Ram Dass retreat ctr in Lama, NM, about 1 hour north. That will have to be a treasure hunt for another day as yesterday I worked in the afternoon/evening at the gym. I walked around the lovely grounds and overheard a room full of people participating in kirtan (chanting). Today my treasure was tasting the delicious burgers(I selected the original 5 star burger which was with gorgonzola cheese, bacon and green chile mayo) at 5 Star Burger for lunch with my landlady, Cindy after we had carpooled each other to a local mechanic to get our car brakes checked out. (good news - I have at least another
Tomorrow I am going to the San Geronimo Feast Day at the famous Taos Pueblo - it promises to be full of native arts/crafts, food, seeing natives in traditional costumes as well as the sacred clowns of the tribe - who it is rumored (or real) throw unruly/rude children into the nearby river. Just writing about this I feel better, lighter and more optimistic. It must be working! And I am typing again - albeit slowly and clumsily....
Monday, September 29, 2008
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
The First Cut is the deepest
Well I won't be writing in the blog for a bit as today I found out that I will need hand surgery (tomorrow) to repair a sensory nerve in my left hand. That apparently minor cut by a knife 11 days ago is the culprit and the hand specialist assured me that without the surgery my hand will never be the same and I could very well have permanent nerve damage - that will never do! So he had an opening in day surgery tomorrow afternoon and got me scheduled immediately saying that the sooner it's repaired the better the result will be. Luckily I have had my share of surgeries so I'm not too nervous about the general anesthesia or going under the knife (already did that....) The stitches will be in for about 10 days and I should get full sensation back within 6 weeks. I guess I'll be doing the "hunt and peck method" for writing and typing and get to watch alot of daytime TV - hope they are some good cheesy movies on the tube because I won't be able to knit!
I have to admit that my very first thought was "I want to get on a plane and come home" to doctors and a hospital that I know and trust, where I have close long time friends to take care of me. I was greatly reassured when I found out that the surgeon, Dr. Chun, was trainned at the Mayo Clinic - name dropping does count - especially when it's about surgery..... Luckily I do already have two friends in Santa Fe and I was able to get ahold of them tonite and they will pick me up tomorrow after surgery and I will stay overnight at their house. I hope it's some really good pain medication - like percocet! Yahoo!
I have to admit that my very first thought was "I want to get on a plane and come home" to doctors and a hospital that I know and trust, where I have close long time friends to take care of me. I was greatly reassured when I found out that the surgeon, Dr. Chun, was trainned at the Mayo Clinic - name dropping does count - especially when it's about surgery..... Luckily I do already have two friends in Santa Fe and I was able to get ahold of them tonite and they will pick me up tomorrow after surgery and I will stay overnight at their house. I hope it's some really good pain medication - like percocet! Yahoo!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
To be or not to be
That is the question... Knowing that I will most likely only be in Taos for 6months (maybe at most 9 months) do I focus some energy on establishing connections with others or stay anonymous? The ambivalence has been floating in the air since I arrived - partly because it takes energy to establish new relationships - not only with people but also with banks, post offices, the library, retail stores, navigating streets, short cuts and the list could go on and on. It has taken alot longer and alot more resources to settle in than I anticipated.... I've learned that I have to have a kitchen that has at least a modicum of equipment - I don't think I can last for 6 months without at least one cookie sheet, a pie pan, rolling pin (even the cheap walmart kind)or pastry blender. I know, I know that seems excessive except my inner self told me that that's what she needs to feel at home in the kitchen. Cooking/baking is therapeutic for me and without decent equipment it only leads to continual frustration. So despite the expense I have succumbed to financing one of the ultimate big box stores, Walmart, (of course it is the only big box store in Taos)and can't count the number of trips I've made there since my arrival 3 weeks ago.
Today I attended a Unity church service - it was located in the large reading room of the Chamisa High School (a private charter school). There were about 25 people in attendance and I found it welcoming and warm. Interestingly most of the folks (actually everyone except one) was in the age range of 50 - 75; I don't know what that means - do they go to the UU church in Ranchos de Taos or one of the many Buddhist meditation groups? The service was much less Christcentric than what I had experienced at Unity Village; in fact one of things that attracted me was the fact that the central table (aka altar) had a picture of different avatars on it - Christ, Buddha, Krishna and Quan Yin and above the table there were prayer flags hanging from the ceiling that had the symbolism of 8 of the major religions. Additionally several of the songs sung were from Karen Drucker and Shaina Noll - 2 songwriters that I admire.
I'm working on attracting the perfect writing support group while I'm here and I saw a notice in the weekly newspaper that a nearby town (Questa) offers a free (or sliding scale/donation - whatever folks can afford)natural healthcare clinic (acupuncture, massage, nutritional consultation, etc)once a month and are open to volunteer practitioners - my intention is to call and offer Reiki treatments on a complimentary basis.
I guess it's not in my nature to be a hermit - even though I enjoy and need solitude/quiet on a regular basis. So it seems I will become connected in Taos despite my temporary residence - it will require effort - given my introverted nature but hopefully it will pay off in the long run - as independent as I am I do enjoy the stimulation of conversation with others, the opportunity for idea exchange and the warmth of human contact.
Today I attended a Unity church service - it was located in the large reading room of the Chamisa High School (a private charter school). There were about 25 people in attendance and I found it welcoming and warm. Interestingly most of the folks (actually everyone except one) was in the age range of 50 - 75; I don't know what that means - do they go to the UU church in Ranchos de Taos or one of the many Buddhist meditation groups? The service was much less Christcentric than what I had experienced at Unity Village; in fact one of things that attracted me was the fact that the central table (aka altar) had a picture of different avatars on it - Christ, Buddha, Krishna and Quan Yin and above the table there were prayer flags hanging from the ceiling that had the symbolism of 8 of the major religions. Additionally several of the songs sung were from Karen Drucker and Shaina Noll - 2 songwriters that I admire.
I'm working on attracting the perfect writing support group while I'm here and I saw a notice in the weekly newspaper that a nearby town (Questa) offers a free (or sliding scale/donation - whatever folks can afford)natural healthcare clinic (acupuncture, massage, nutritional consultation, etc)once a month and are open to volunteer practitioners - my intention is to call and offer Reiki treatments on a complimentary basis.
I guess it's not in my nature to be a hermit - even though I enjoy and need solitude/quiet on a regular basis. So it seems I will become connected in Taos despite my temporary residence - it will require effort - given my introverted nature but hopefully it will pay off in the long run - as independent as I am I do enjoy the stimulation of conversation with others, the opportunity for idea exchange and the warmth of human contact.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Listen, Write, Type
This is my new mantra as I began transcriping the interviews for my book on Thursday. First I relisten to the interviews with headsets on while taking detailed notes of the content and type up the notes onto a Word document to later be developed into a chapter. I started at the beginning with my very first interview in Lancaster, Ontario at the home of Jim and Betty Healey. Listening to the tapes brings me back to the feeling of my visit with them on the weekend of May 9th - llth, their sumptuous gardens, the inspired labyrinth walk day on Saturday that over 50+ people attended and the delightful time I had getting to know each of them better. They have a retreat center at their home, entitled, "Tigh Shee" - which is gaelic for "House of Peace" - a name they borrowed on one of their trips to Scotland on the isle of Ionia. Creating peaceful, safe and beautiful natural environments - both physically (in their magical gardens)and emotionally/spiritually is their joint mission and life's purpose. I am grateful that I had the privilege to experience it first hand and hear the stories of how they manifested its creation. I have now finished transcriping both of their interviews and the next step is to write a rough draft of a chapter to be followed by a follow-up interview with them to check on the status of their projects.
It feels good to have begun the writing processing - after all that is why I am in Taos. I have begun training at the new Health club and will start working regular shifts next week. One of the members told me about a weekly knitting group in town that meets every Weds pm at 6 - I am looking forward to dropping in and having company while I knit.... This will be a bit of a challenge for awhile, however.
Last week while I was slicing an avocado for dinner the knife slipped and cut my palm. Not badly enough that it needed stitches (according to my lay diagnosis)but obviously deep enough that it apparently has done nerve damage - the section of my palm cut (on my left hand), my index and middle fingers are numb and continue to be. Each day there is a subtle improvement (hopefully I am not deluding myself with wishful thinking)and decrease in the numbness but it's still present and affecting digital manipulation - especially anything that involves fine motor control in my left hand - ie: washing dishes, shampooing my hair, typing, etc. A few years back I had accidentally cut a sliver off the side of my thumb and I remember how long it took for the numbness to wear off.... I have tried to make a Dr.'s appt; however, I have been informed by several Dr.'s offices that they don't take out of state insurance and that I would have to pay them first and then be reimbursed by my insurance company later - which I interpret as not being reimbursed - realistically. I don't relish the idea of been seen at the emergency room and paying the hefty co-pay especially when I already have an appt at the Family Practice Assocs. on October 1st for a repeat CT scan. Navigating the health care system has become even more complicated when you are not in the same state where you purchased - another reason, IMHO (in my humbe opinon)for universal healthcare coverage. This is especially annoying as I pay a very expensive premium every month for health insurance. Go figure....
It feels good to have begun the writing processing - after all that is why I am in Taos. I have begun training at the new Health club and will start working regular shifts next week. One of the members told me about a weekly knitting group in town that meets every Weds pm at 6 - I am looking forward to dropping in and having company while I knit.... This will be a bit of a challenge for awhile, however.
Last week while I was slicing an avocado for dinner the knife slipped and cut my palm. Not badly enough that it needed stitches (according to my lay diagnosis)but obviously deep enough that it apparently has done nerve damage - the section of my palm cut (on my left hand), my index and middle fingers are numb and continue to be. Each day there is a subtle improvement (hopefully I am not deluding myself with wishful thinking)and decrease in the numbness but it's still present and affecting digital manipulation - especially anything that involves fine motor control in my left hand - ie: washing dishes, shampooing my hair, typing, etc. A few years back I had accidentally cut a sliver off the side of my thumb and I remember how long it took for the numbness to wear off.... I have tried to make a Dr.'s appt; however, I have been informed by several Dr.'s offices that they don't take out of state insurance and that I would have to pay them first and then be reimbursed by my insurance company later - which I interpret as not being reimbursed - realistically. I don't relish the idea of been seen at the emergency room and paying the hefty co-pay especially when I already have an appt at the Family Practice Assocs. on October 1st for a repeat CT scan. Navigating the health care system has become even more complicated when you are not in the same state where you purchased - another reason, IMHO (in my humbe opinon)for universal healthcare coverage. This is especially annoying as I pay a very expensive premium every month for health insurance. Go figure....
Listen, Write, Type
This is my new mantra as I began transcriping the interviews for my book on Thursday. First I relisten to the interviews with headsets on while taking detailed notes of the content and type up the notes onto a Word document to later be developed into a chapter. I started at the beginning with my very first interview in Lancaster, Ontario at the home of Jim and Betty Healey. Listening to the tapes brings me back to the feeling of my visit with them on the weekend of May 9th - llth, their sumptuous gardens, the inspired labyrinth walk day on Saturday that over 50+ people attended and the delightful time I had getting to know each of them better. They have a retreat center at their home, entitled, "Tigh Shee" - which is gaelic for "House of Peace" - a name they borrowed on one of their trips to Scotland on the isle of Ionia. Creating peaceful, safe and beautiful natural environments - both physically (in their magical gardens)and emotionally/spiritually is their joint mission and life's purpose. I am grateful that I had the privilege to experience it first hand and hear the stories of how they manifested its creation. I have now finished transcriping both of their interviews and the next step is to write a rough draft of a chapter to be followed by a follow-up interview with them to check on the status of their projects.
It feels good to have begun the writing processing - after all that is why I am in Taos. I have begun training at the new Health club and will start working regular shifts next week. One of the members told me about a weekly knitting group in town that meets every Weds pm at 6 - I am looking forward to dropping in and having company while I knit.... This will be a bit of a challenge for awhile, however.
Last week while I was slicing an avocado for dinner the knife slipped and cut my palm. Not badly enough that it needed stitches (according to my lay diagnosis)but obviously deep enough that it apparently has done nerve damage - the section of my palm cut (on my left hand), my index and middle fingers are numb and continue to be. Each day there is a subtle improvement (hopefully I am not deluding myself with wishful thinking)and decrease in the numbness but it's still present and affecting digital manipulation - especially anything that involves fine motor control in my left hand - ie: washing dishes, shampooing my hair, typing, etc. A few years back I had accidentally cut a sliver off the side of my thumb and I remember how long it took for the numbness to wear off.... I have tried to make a Dr.'s appt; however, I have been informed by several Dr.'s offices that they don't take out of state insurance and that I would have to pay them first and then be reimbursed by my insurance company later - which I interpret as not being reimbursed - realistically. I don't relish the idea of been seen at the emergency room and paying the hefty co-pay especially when I already have an appt at the Family Practice Assocs. on October 1st for a repeat CT scan. Navigating the health care system has become even more complicated when you are not in the same state where you purchased - another reason, IMHO (in my humbe opinon)for universal healthcare coverage. This is especially annoying as I pay a very expensive premium every month for health insurance. Go figure....
It feels good to have begun the writing processing - after all that is why I am in Taos. I have begun training at the new Health club and will start working regular shifts next week. One of the members told me about a weekly knitting group in town that meets every Weds pm at 6 - I am looking forward to dropping in and having company while I knit.... This will be a bit of a challenge for awhile, however.
Last week while I was slicing an avocado for dinner the knife slipped and cut my palm. Not badly enough that it needed stitches (according to my lay diagnosis)but obviously deep enough that it apparently has done nerve damage - the section of my palm cut (on my left hand), my index and middle fingers are numb and continue to be. Each day there is a subtle improvement (hopefully I am not deluding myself with wishful thinking)and decrease in the numbness but it's still present and affecting digital manipulation - especially anything that involves fine motor control in my left hand - ie: washing dishes, shampooing my hair, typing, etc. A few years back I had accidentally cut a sliver off the side of my thumb and I remember how long it took for the numbness to wear off.... I have tried to make a Dr.'s appt; however, I have been informed by several Dr.'s offices that they don't take out of state insurance and that I would have to pay them first and then be reimbursed by my insurance company later - which I interpret as not being reimbursed - realistically. I don't relish the idea of been seen at the emergency room and paying the hefty co-pay especially when I already have an appt at the Family Practice Assocs. on October 1st for a repeat CT scan. Navigating the health care system has become even more complicated when you are not in the same state where you purchased - another reason, IMHO (in my humbe opinon)for universal healthcare coverage. This is especially annoying as I pay a very expensive premium every month for health insurance. Go figure....
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
It's official...
A herculean effort over the past week has finally resulted in an official new mailing address! Keep those postcards and letters coming to: HCR 74, Box 21409, El Prado, NM 87529 I had wanted an official Taos address; however, El Prado is a neighboring area just outside of Taos and the good news is that there's a neighborhood box at the end of my physical address on 19 Wisdom Way Rd so it's convenient way to collect mail from all you well wishers and bill collectors...
Now I just have to get a library card (later today) and I will really feel settled in and ready to begin work on the reason I am here in the first place! Tomorrow's the official day of beginning on compiling interviews and turning recordings into a book. My last "nesting" investment was a new southwest designed/colored tablecloth and napkins purchased yesterday in the retail mecca of Santa Fe - and that was a colossal effort as well but I won't bore you with the details of retail withdrawal in Taos and the mystery tour of finding the perfect tablecloth in SF. I had made the trip to Santa Fe to my new orthodontist to finish up the last haul of my braces. Dr. Cook married the same year I was born - if that gives you any idea of his age! He chuckled when he met me - he said that he's a pediatric orthodontist -but would swear to the fact that I'm only 18 - and made me promise to keep that secret as well.
I also just found out this morning that I will begin training at the new health club on Friday am and Sat afternoon - the recent hire did not work out (not because she didn't like it but she was already overcommited with graduate school, etc.)and I will be working 3 shifts per week: Weds, Thurs, and Sat afternoons from 1:45 pm to close - about 20 - 22 hours per week. Given the workings of the stock market lately and cost of living in Taos this is a welcome experience - to at least cover groceries and gas each week.
Speaking of the stock market it's a challenge to not get freaked out by recent events... Especially if you're investor and you don't have a clue (probably nobody does)how long this downturn will last and what it will take for the market to recover. I have had the privilege of living off the interest from my investments -and up until about 6 months ago that wasn't affecting principle that much. Now it's a different story - one that gives me pause about appropriate next steps and how to keep my "nest egg" safe in these volatile times. Of course banks can declare bankruptcy (many smaller ones have) - do we buy bonds or hide cash under our mattress like in the old days? I know that buying into fear and the prospect of scarcity doesn't help bring abundance and the flow of money into your life. Maintaining calm and positive thoughts is a spiritual practice especially when "reality" and the media focus on its opposite. Perhaps having a TV right now is not such a positive development - I've lived without one for almost 3 yrs - it will take discipline to only "tune in" to entertaining and hopefully thought provoking movies versus the "doom and gloom" of network news stations.
Now I just have to get a library card (later today) and I will really feel settled in and ready to begin work on the reason I am here in the first place! Tomorrow's the official day of beginning on compiling interviews and turning recordings into a book. My last "nesting" investment was a new southwest designed/colored tablecloth and napkins purchased yesterday in the retail mecca of Santa Fe - and that was a colossal effort as well but I won't bore you with the details of retail withdrawal in Taos and the mystery tour of finding the perfect tablecloth in SF. I had made the trip to Santa Fe to my new orthodontist to finish up the last haul of my braces. Dr. Cook married the same year I was born - if that gives you any idea of his age! He chuckled when he met me - he said that he's a pediatric orthodontist -but would swear to the fact that I'm only 18 - and made me promise to keep that secret as well.
I also just found out this morning that I will begin training at the new health club on Friday am and Sat afternoon - the recent hire did not work out (not because she didn't like it but she was already overcommited with graduate school, etc.)and I will be working 3 shifts per week: Weds, Thurs, and Sat afternoons from 1:45 pm to close - about 20 - 22 hours per week. Given the workings of the stock market lately and cost of living in Taos this is a welcome experience - to at least cover groceries and gas each week.
Speaking of the stock market it's a challenge to not get freaked out by recent events... Especially if you're investor and you don't have a clue (probably nobody does)how long this downturn will last and what it will take for the market to recover. I have had the privilege of living off the interest from my investments -and up until about 6 months ago that wasn't affecting principle that much. Now it's a different story - one that gives me pause about appropriate next steps and how to keep my "nest egg" safe in these volatile times. Of course banks can declare bankruptcy (many smaller ones have) - do we buy bonds or hide cash under our mattress like in the old days? I know that buying into fear and the prospect of scarcity doesn't help bring abundance and the flow of money into your life. Maintaining calm and positive thoughts is a spiritual practice especially when "reality" and the media focus on its opposite. Perhaps having a TV right now is not such a positive development - I've lived without one for almost 3 yrs - it will take discipline to only "tune in" to entertaining and hopefully thought provoking movies versus the "doom and gloom" of network news stations.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Entomology 101
I never did take this class in college but now I wish I had. The downside of living in a earthship is that you tend to share space with a variety of insects - every morning I see new and unknown versions of such on the floor next to my bed (!) or in the drain of the shower stall. There are of course the different varieties of ants - I'm not too thrilled with the resident red ants - I know that color can't be good. I think I've seen several centipede species, lots of crickets (what are their mating habits?), a few small(thank goodness) lizards, lots of birds(yes I know they're not insects) chirping/eating the wild sunflowers (in this area they consider them a weed...). I've yet to hear/see coyotes but I know they're there.... One of the owners of ex-health club brought her dog, Noelle, in one day with her entire backside riddled with stitches (40 in all) - courtesy of a coyote. I didn't have the nerve to ask the details - like did it happen on a day time walk? And a few days ago, while lounging in the new health club hot tub, an employee of the forest service expounded on the dangers of hiking in the dark - that people don't realize the size of the mountain lion or bobcat population in the area. Well - you certainly won't catch me in the mountains after nightfall. I'm even feeling a bit nervous to hike by myself in the day time... And what could I bring to protect myself - pepper spray (even if I had it)is hardly a deterrent.
I guess the insects are just a reminder that this area is really different from my familiar stomping grounds in the White Mtns - and adjustments are to be expected and I intend - to be appreciated. I do really appreciate the beautiful blue sky on most days and the warmth of the sun. Even when the temperatures are 60 degrees or so it feels alot warmer -more like high 70's or low 80's because the sun is so strong and with the higher altitude (6,000 feet or so above sea level)we're so much closer to it in Northern New Mexico. There's something very earthy and natural about all the adobe dwellings and I am really glad that my earthship is on the mesa affording a great view of the Sangro de Christo Mtns every day. The turquoise trim on the windows and doors here is an inspirational addition of color to offset the natural shades of brown of the buildings. Maybe because of the expansiveness of the landscape the folk here seem consistently friendly - a true blessing for me - being a stranger in a strange land.
My daughter, Jenn, from Durango, CO (about 3 1/2 hrs away)visited this weekend and I got to do some of the tourist activities that I hadn't taken the time for yet - like visit Taos Ski Valley (elevation above 9,000 feet), get a glimpse of the valley that is supposedly the location of Julia Roberts' house, roam the boutiques on the Plaza, Bent St., and Ledoux St as well go for a much needed shopping trip to Santa Fe for a visit to the typical big box stores - TJMaxx, Target, Best Buy, Linens n' things, and the infamous Trader Joe's - in which I discovered more reasonable prices than the local grocery stores. Although Santa Fe was invigorating my choice to winter in Taos is more to my liking - smaller, less congested and closer to the mountains - as well as bordering the refreshing sight of the Rio Grande - the only fresh body of water in miles....
I guess the insects are just a reminder that this area is really different from my familiar stomping grounds in the White Mtns - and adjustments are to be expected and I intend - to be appreciated. I do really appreciate the beautiful blue sky on most days and the warmth of the sun. Even when the temperatures are 60 degrees or so it feels alot warmer -more like high 70's or low 80's because the sun is so strong and with the higher altitude (6,000 feet or so above sea level)we're so much closer to it in Northern New Mexico. There's something very earthy and natural about all the adobe dwellings and I am really glad that my earthship is on the mesa affording a great view of the Sangro de Christo Mtns every day. The turquoise trim on the windows and doors here is an inspirational addition of color to offset the natural shades of brown of the buildings. Maybe because of the expansiveness of the landscape the folk here seem consistently friendly - a true blessing for me - being a stranger in a strange land.
My daughter, Jenn, from Durango, CO (about 3 1/2 hrs away)visited this weekend and I got to do some of the tourist activities that I hadn't taken the time for yet - like visit Taos Ski Valley (elevation above 9,000 feet), get a glimpse of the valley that is supposedly the location of Julia Roberts' house, roam the boutiques on the Plaza, Bent St., and Ledoux St as well go for a much needed shopping trip to Santa Fe for a visit to the typical big box stores - TJMaxx, Target, Best Buy, Linens n' things, and the infamous Trader Joe's - in which I discovered more reasonable prices than the local grocery stores. Although Santa Fe was invigorating my choice to winter in Taos is more to my liking - smaller, less congested and closer to the mountains - as well as bordering the refreshing sight of the Rio Grande - the only fresh body of water in miles....
Friday, September 12, 2008
Keeping the Faith
Although somewhat disappointed that my first attempt at a part time job didn't work out I quickly discovered the benefits of letting go of what does not serve me - and how that creates the space for something better to appear that does serve me and my highest good. Part of me didn't want to let go of the job at Taos Spa and Tennis Club until I had located another position. Then I realized that holding onto to something for reasons of security and scarcity thinking would continue to stagnate the flow of energy and better options wouldn't be attracted to me because I would be in the field of "hanging on". How many other times have I done that in my life with other jobs, relationships, and issues... Too many to count. Maybe this should be my new mantra - if it doesn't feel good after 3 days - let it go.
Of course that doesn't mean that there aren't many times that relationships with employers, partners/spouses, etc. aren't worth fighting for and staying through the "thick and the thin" - it's a process of discernment - is it temporarily going thru a "yucky" phase or is this a sign of irreconcilable differences and continuing decay? I'm certainly no expert on this subject as I have had a series of varying length monogamous relationships (8 yrs, 9 yrs, 11 yrs respectively)but I'm hopeful that this lesson (it has been a recurring one)will serve me well as I navigate potential future relationships whether with friends or romantic partners.
So the upshot of letting go of the less than perfect job is that I have been spending more time at the other gym in town, Northside Health and Fitness Ctr., and have noticed how much warmer, more relaxed the atmosphere is - a real sense of community. I approached the manager and found out that although there's no current positions available the owner would be open to a trade for membership for a certain # of hours/month as well as being on the sub list to fill in for staff vacation/sick days. The owners are a lesbian couple with 2 children and are bright, politically liberal and passionate about fostering a sense of warmth and community at their facility. As Shelley, one of the co-owners, talked to me she invited me into her office, showed me the map of the states highlighting the percentages of support for the current nominess for President and made no excuses for her support for Obama; then delightly showed me a utube video of her daughter and son (ages 6 and 3)singing and playing instruments with a local band. I consistently noticed the way the manager greeted members, the hugs that were mutually reciprocated and the amount of laughter that could be heard from my seat in the sidelines while using my laptop and sipping iced Americano's...(in case you were wondering - only one/day) This made me realize that this was the place for me and so it is. Yesterday I scored a free membership card and will train at some future date for filling in behind the desk.
I have a sense that this will be a good introduction to the community of Taos; already while soaking in the hot tub I met a healing touch practitioner who gave me the name of a Reiki Master in town who might be involved in a Reiki exchange group.
And heard warnings about the mountain lions and bobcats in the mountains... Well that's the subject of another entry....
Of course that doesn't mean that there aren't many times that relationships with employers, partners/spouses, etc. aren't worth fighting for and staying through the "thick and the thin" - it's a process of discernment - is it temporarily going thru a "yucky" phase or is this a sign of irreconcilable differences and continuing decay? I'm certainly no expert on this subject as I have had a series of varying length monogamous relationships (8 yrs, 9 yrs, 11 yrs respectively)but I'm hopeful that this lesson (it has been a recurring one)will serve me well as I navigate potential future relationships whether with friends or romantic partners.
So the upshot of letting go of the less than perfect job is that I have been spending more time at the other gym in town, Northside Health and Fitness Ctr., and have noticed how much warmer, more relaxed the atmosphere is - a real sense of community. I approached the manager and found out that although there's no current positions available the owner would be open to a trade for membership for a certain # of hours/month as well as being on the sub list to fill in for staff vacation/sick days. The owners are a lesbian couple with 2 children and are bright, politically liberal and passionate about fostering a sense of warmth and community at their facility. As Shelley, one of the co-owners, talked to me she invited me into her office, showed me the map of the states highlighting the percentages of support for the current nominess for President and made no excuses for her support for Obama; then delightly showed me a utube video of her daughter and son (ages 6 and 3)singing and playing instruments with a local band. I consistently noticed the way the manager greeted members, the hugs that were mutually reciprocated and the amount of laughter that could be heard from my seat in the sidelines while using my laptop and sipping iced Americano's...(in case you were wondering - only one/day) This made me realize that this was the place for me and so it is. Yesterday I scored a free membership card and will train at some future date for filling in behind the desk.
I have a sense that this will be a good introduction to the community of Taos; already while soaking in the hot tub I met a healing touch practitioner who gave me the name of a Reiki Master in town who might be involved in a Reiki exchange group.
And heard warnings about the mountain lions and bobcats in the mountains... Well that's the subject of another entry....
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